This is one of those days again when you just feel confussed when you wake up because of a fucking dream. It happends to me like all the time. Most of the time i feel complete with my life and I feel happy and then at some days I can feel so empty and have that feeling of missing someone. 2 completly diffrent thoughts and wills, its like im 2 hearted. I have my boyfriend that is everything i ever wanted. He is the guy i could build a future with and he loves me and accepts me for the person I am. And then there is him… I never really seem to let him go completly. Whatever I seem to do he always pops up in my daily life or in my dreams…. And the dreams im having. They are fucked up.